For what it's worth (I hope something, but one never knows), when I am feeling the boredom, restlesseness, and temptations you describe, it is almost always as "cover" for some other, more difficult emotion(s).
So, when I find myself imagining affairs, fantasizing about leaving it all behind for some new, exotic form of life, or even just on days that I just can't seem to hold still, the sanity saving move is not to take any of this on its own terms, but to ask, rather, "okay, but what's under this?" - and to ask it again and again until I've gotten below all the layers of covering emotions to something like the heart of the matter.
I know when I've got at least CLOSE to "what's really going on with me" when the restlessness, boredom, impulse to questionable choices, etc. begin to dissipate...which also (usually!) keeps me from acting on emotions which don't really merit serving as a grounds for action.
The great, good anonymity of this blog being what it is, I don't know you and certainly don't claim to know what's most real, most pressing, or the best outcome in the situation you describe. But this approach has helped me, a lot, over the tumultuous years.
I wish you all the best...
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Posted by twilight blue to academicsecret at 8/18/2006 12:07:49 PM
